Snow

White, such a comforting color, one that had surrounded me my whole life. I had always been a sickly child, even since I was born I had been in and out of the hospital, the white sheets and walls were home to me. White was not only the hospital, no it was snow. Soft white flakes, each with there own unique pattern. How I wished I could go outside and lay in the soft yet cold embrace of the snow covered ground just once, but the doctors wouldn't allow it, so I just be content sitting and watching it from the window at my bed side.
Tomorrow was December 25, tonight was Christmas eve and looking at the snow as it fluttered from the sky I hoped that this year Santa wouldn't forget me. Unlike past years, this year I had to spend Christmas in the hospital, alone. Mom and Dad had to stay home with Ethalinda and told me they wouldn't be able to make it to the hospital tonight.  That had been their excuse a lot lately, but in truth ever since my little sister was born two years ago, they had seemed to have given up on me and began to devote there time to Ethalinda instead of me. It made me sad, that mom didn't seem to love me anymore, that daddy didn't have time for his princess. And while most kids my age ask Santa for a doll or bear, this year all I wanted was a friend.
"(Y/N) you have a visitor" the nurse said from my door, causing me to turn from the falling snow and watch a cheery blond boy come into my room.  His checks where rosy and his eyes brown, he wore a red coat that was lined with white wool to keep him warm.
"Hallo (Y/N)"
"Merry Christmas Sir" I said sitting up from bed to greet the unfamiliar man.
"A little bird told me you have been a very good girl this year (Y/N), so I thought you might like this." He told me happily pulling a red sack out of no where and handing me a pink wrapped gift. "Merry Christmas (Y/N)" he said before turning around and leaving me alone again.  Sighing I tore the colorful paper of the gift to find a fine made soldier doll.  This jacket was a royal blue color decorated with black, his pants the same shad as his jacket , his boots black like coal. His head was decorated with a blue cap that sat perfectly on his blond hair. His face was stern, yet bore a small smile, glasses sat on his sea colored eye. Attached to him was a small not that red:'He shall remain as long as his buttons shine'.
"Thank you" I whispered hoping it would somehow reach the kind man who had brought me such a generous gift , not totally understanding what the note ment. Hugging my new friend to me chest, I sat with him and for once didn't feel alone as I drifted to sleep as I watched the snow fall.
The clock had just chimed midnight when I woke to a thump. As I strained to open my tired eyes, I instinctively felt for my doll only to find it missing. Shutting up from my place in bed I manically looked on the floor around my bed and frozen when I saw coal colored boots. Looking up I met the ocean colored eyes of a stern blonde.
"Whoa"

~Le Time skip of  Seven Years~

"Berwald look, its snowing." I said to the blonde across from me. It hade been seven years since a mysterious blond had given me the soldier doll, since he had given me my only friend, Berwald. Over those seven years I had spent six of them in the hospital, like now. Every now and then a nurse would stumble in and give me my medication, but when it was just Berwald and I, he would turn into a boy only a year or so older then me.
"Hm" he grunted back, glancing out the frost covered window. Over the years I had learned Berwald wasn't a man of many word. But even with his lack of speech he had became my best friend, maybe even something more. Recently I couldn't help but gaze upon his face and blush at his handsome face. He made my heart skip a beat.
He had been there for me when I had no one, not even my parents came around anymore, they had stopped visiting me two years ago. Apparently I was just a waste of time and money to them now and I knew deep down that they wished I would just die already. There wish would come true soon enough thought. I know the doctors hadn't told me but I could tell my time was coming near it's end, everyday seemed to make it harder to breath. I didn't know if Berwald knew, if he did he had never said anything to me. I was glad that I at least had Berwald to be with me till then.
"Hey Berwald, have you ever wanted to go out and see what the snow is like?" I asked him and received a shake of the head as a reply. "Well I do, if I have the chance I want to go out into the snow just once."
I told him before the room became silent and we just sat and watched he falling snow, my eyes slowly getting heavier till they closed. I could swear I left warm lips touch my forehead as I drifted off into slumber and felt my Soldier doll slide into my arms.

Opening my eyes to the dimly light sky of a Christmas eve's night, it felt as if someone was choking me. I couldn't breath and when I found myself able to it hurt like hot coals being poured down my throat.
"Ber-Berwald" I cried for him, tears retreating down my face as a nurse came in and checked me over. Injecting some pain killer into my arm, she walked out of the room with a sad look on her face, on so grim I only hoped it wasn't what I thought it was. Please, not now, please, just one more snow fall, that's all I ask, I said in my head praying for just one more day. More tears met my face as a warm had slid itself in mine and I looked up to find Berwald looking down at me. His face held the same stern expression as when I first met him, but his eyes held a look of sadness.
"I'll be ok (Y/n)" he said in his gruff voice trying to soothe the tears that left my eyes. The sadness in his eyes were unbearable, I found myself unable to look him in the eyes any longer as he lifted his other had to wipe the tears from my face. I found some comfort from the warmth of his skin in mine as I watched the snow begin to fall outside my first floor window. Some of the nurses had decorated a couple of the tree's outside my window, the lights caused the flakes to shimmer as the fell to the sparkling ground.
"Hey Berwald, if you could have anything, what would you wish for?" I asked him as the tears began to slow but not stop. I was met with no reply, just a squeeze of my hand and his warm lips on my forehead. "I'm going to miss you Berwald, more then anything, even the snow."  I told him finally turning away from the frost covered glass to look at him again.
"Hm" he grunted in response, unable to find the word to speak. I couldn't help but smile at his lack of words. If I didn't know better it could have mad today seem like just another day, but I knew it wasn't the case.
"Can you help me over to the window Berwald?" I asked looking back at the snow. If it wasn't for his strong arms, I knew I wouldn't have made it over to the window. The snow looked so much prettier from the window, I wanted so much to open the window and feel the snow at least once. As if he had heard my silent plea, I watched Berwald undo the latch of the window and open it, letting the cold wind of winters breath brush past me, freezing the trail the tears had left on my face. With the ghost of a smile on my face I lifted a weak hand out and met the cold air, relishing in the feeling of flakes meeting my palm. Berwald just remained next to me the whole time I watched the winter wonderland just inches from me, he had wrapped his large arms around me at some point and I found warmth by snuggling back into his chest.
"(Y/N) I l've y'u" I heard him whisper in my ear as I began to go numb to the world around me.
"I love you too Berwald" I answered in a whisper, unable to speak any louder as my eyes began to feel heavier then normal. The world arounf me began to slowly blur. I couldn't find the snow anymore, I could only see a faint light making its way towards me. And as it found me I felt the warmth of Berwald disappear behind me, like the snow disappearing in the spring.

POV Change
The room was cold to the Finnish man as he step into it un noticed by the roaming nurses. In the white sheets of the bed laid a familiar (H/C). In her cold arms was the doll he had given he seven years before, still in perfect condition.
"You did well Berwald" the man said to the doll as he approached the motionless girl. Picking up the doll from her lifeless arms, he pulled one of the decorative buttons from the soldiers jacket before tucking it back into the girls arms. "Merry Christmas (Y/N), Berwald" he said soft as he left the two to share eternal slumber together, knowing neither one would ever wake up again.